Deal with it - sure! Actually I can, but I’m told
the real audience isn’t in my reality – I’m less
an effect than figment of my own confidence.
I see the pigment markings as bas-relief – an
ochre where deep blue or silent green should
be – and no depth to shadows, no substance
beyond this day’s shallow, two-dimensional
analogy. I’d be wiser to keep a stilled tongue.
Already I sleep discomforted with the grateful
dead, memories are equally indistinct. Each
waking mood is relinquished to an intense
relief which introspection fails to allay. This
same day I realised who I’ve been listening
to; it is common misbelief to take one’s orb
of conscience as humanities collective choice.
There is no voice out in the ether, nor any wiser
preference without consequence. And I’m glad
to say I can still deal with that in my own way...
© 3 December 2007, I. D. Carswell
This piece embodies a powerful truth that I'm attempting to deal with a lot these days. Plus, I'm pissed 'cause I see you used 'bas relief' before I got around to it! Arghhh!
ReplyDeleteAnyhow, love the 'flow' of this one (ugh, hate to use that descriptor, but it seems so apt here). I've read this whole first page this morning, Ivan, and all I can say is that you keep getting better (knowing me, you also know that I could say a lot more, but...attempting to add some succinctness to my rambling...how am I doing?). Anyhow, thanks for the nice morning...hope you and yours had a nice holiday...jim