30 September 2009

Toasted

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A sign of the times you’d
say or intelligence applied
with novelty – to you it
makes two toasted
sandwiches agreeably

but to me it is a temperature
controlled clamp which
seals the ends of plastic
mesh avocado bags
quickly and efficiently

that is not to detract from
occupationally making
occasional toasted sandwiches
which it will when this
seasonal need ceases

chances of change
increasing proportionally
with estranged use and odds
the traditional owner will
stand on ceremony
© 4 August 2009, I. D. Carswell

29 September 2009

Meaty Bites

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it isn’t the way I’d imagined
– if I had the imagination – yet
I am examining a receipt from
shopping with painful curiosity
wondering whether I actually
purchased the items listed
on back of an envelope

the documents do not compare –
a shopping list with two things:
coconut crème, and tomato mix
while the receipt contains
more than twenty

discrepancies easily explained by
taste an inner voice says – ten tins
of mix ranging from Moroccan and
Indian style thru peri peri, tomatoes
crushed with basil, Mexican chilli
and lastly, ubiquitous baked beans

however you do have three
tins of coconut crème and a
tub of Greek-style yogurt

wisdom made the remainder
good choices it says – you’ll
enjoy a hydroponic lettuce
as much as the dogs their
Purina meaty bites
© 3 August 2009, I. D. Carswell

28 September 2009

Counting Chickens...

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I wouldn’t rate the gaucherie
any less than 10 – and well
earned at that; last time he
delivered hatchling chickens
they turned out to be 100%
dinkum ‘males’, sixty of ‘em;
egg-layers not a one. Culls
from poultry farms would be
my guess but he, an idealist
believed what they said, and
being an ex-soldier & a vet we
forgave him. But today it was
no thanks mate; Geeze, 90%
are female he sez, she swears
for real – nah mate, no deal,
that last lot filled the fridge
took all the romance away
© 1 August 2009, I. D. Carswell

27 September 2009

The You Of You

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It doesn’t go away – no shelter
from the emptiness; a pure
and empty space invades what
used to be

A presence that was here remains
in truth, evades the cleaning broom
as easily as air – dispersing in the
face of it

And yet it stays as cogent as a place
preserved – a fortitude of memories
a physicality exposed as
naked truth

Senses are seduced in echoes from
a past reduced to ashes spread and
hasty footprints traced through 
nascent dust

But emptiness still grows when lust
consumes an empty eye for touch
and tooth and smell of it that
sadly fled

No sound can fill the space you
left so patently contused; without the
You of You this place bemused is
deficit
5 August 2009, I. D. Carswell

26 September 2009

Captor’s Hands

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too late to change the face
of it in moments left agape
to chance; the shape of it
has changed in trance-like
penury outstayed 


her voice is thinly guised in 
cries that neither bruise nor
criticise the way you care; she
knows you’re there forever
and a day 


she lies awake embracing 
tears she’ll weep while you
are held to ransom by her
eyes – she smiles and waves
her flippant captor’s hands
© 17 August 2009, I. D. Carswell

25 September 2009

Need

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I see the cherub’s grace in this
expression strained with angst
I know it less than as it seems

she’s reined by circumstance in
ways unveiled by able chance
that preys on gravid sympathy

although we held her warming
tight in gracious arms embrace
in basics of her need we failed
© 17 August 2009, I. D. Carswell

24 September 2009

Ant Bites

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Ant-bites leave no tame
illusions it’s free-for-all –
you better believe they’re
equipped to do you harm

Picking limes doesn’t seem
hazardous until stubborn pain
from ant fangs aided by
thorns dispels uncertainty

Scratches I can live with
but lime-tree ants frantically
trapped between shirt and
skin demand a vicious rent

Dead – yes, crushed out of
existence in a heartbeat
but citronellal pungency
spreads graphic warnings

Says with ominous certainty
the next few hours
ain’t gonna be
all that pleasant...
© 31 July 2009, I. D. Carswell

23 September 2009

Disappointed Almost Covers It

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Disappointed almost covers
it – sort of put out and a wee
bit peeved after twice leafing
thru’ The Range News trying
to find the weekly crossword

Last week’s solution on p.39
didn’t appease; I had done it
too easily anyway – so where
is today’s distraction situated?
Well, obviously not here...

Suppose I could actually read
The Range News rather than
merely skim corny pictures of
petty make-believe, but no,
I’m never that desperate
© 31 July 2009, I. D. Carswell

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22 September 2009

Out Of Ideas… (Rev)

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If I don’t write something good tonight
I will sleep without the comforting star
of deep believers, if I sleep at all, and
this light which ignites my enormous
poetic conceit and guides my muse will
suffer and die, my hands be stilled.

Tomorrow I might read these words
and endure the bite of astral derision,
contrite in failing to attain an irrelevant
end of my own, arrogant making, descrying
blight that screens my dream invention.

I have sagely delighted in little words
casually placed in weak conjunction
growing suddenly out of the page, thriving
in the space of a line, yielding the sweetest,
unintended rhyme and reaching for life;
it is what I die for.

But tonight the rhymes are bleak, the
rhythms lie broken and lifeless, steeped
in self-pity, and usually bright Canopus is
shaded; poor choices surround me with
listless conjecture, jaded, banal and
sourly dejected. I, too, am drained,
ill-used and rejected.
© I. D. Carswell 2006

21 September 2009

Tales In The Beginning (rev)

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Tales in the beginning didn’t begin
in the telling – they would have started
no doubt, but not without a concrete
bearing, a causal opening and a beckoning
ending (at least tacitly implied), otherwise
devout listeners would have opted out.

A tale can’t begin with no point of origin,
no sequencing and no denouement in sight,
is a journey nowhere, and nowhere is death
to storytelling. Selling the fiction is as fabled
as voyaging and we have travelled far in a
continuing tale, its essence is ‘we’ as a company
of choice and its charter free travel where,
though our journeys may be separate, may
roam quantum distances in intuitive places,
invade the reaches of stellar space, they are
never journeys we’ve taken alone.

So what is a beginning the beginning of?
The clichéd expression ‘let there be light’ and
there was; no sudden burst of it, at least
not at first, just a pleasant shimmer on an
intellectually indistinct horison that grew into
a glimmer of realisation, an awareness of
continuity agreed, a contiguity between this
moment and the next because we needed it
sustained, and in the barest consummation
a shouted recognition, We Are Here!

Whether it was on the shores of an inland
sea in Africa many millennia in the past, or
in a burst of melodramatic light that was
good and has lasted, We Are Still Here.

In the beginning that was all there was,
a new forged social unity of the self aware
in a community of need, a bare structure
to belie the complexities to come, but it
was where all tales must have begun.

When sister Faye read us pencilled lines
from her exercise book and the sound
was no different to that of real tales being
told in the firelight, and when we were
absorbed in the parables and fictions
which emerged and found they were
Just Like Us, and as we overcame our
prejudices we were bound in the same
ancient fabric our ancestors of the sea
and lake wove, to wear the same clothes
in our shared histories, and there in the fable
and the firelight we discovered ourselves.

I return to those ways when I invoke
the power of words, of listening open-mouthed
and wide-eyed to hypnotic reading, of being
bound up in breathtaking storytelling, of
breathing hushed and constrained for fear
of missing a nuance, a whisper; it is there
where it would have begun,
with the tales in the beginning.
© I.D. Carswell

June 2006

For sister Faye who may have unwittingly
started it all.

20 September 2009

Vision

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his vision goes beyond
death’s immediacy
thirty eggs are to hatch
three weeks hence – a
process as inexorable as
cellular division and there
can be no more delays

rises above rough
mechanics of slaughter –
you are fine birds
he praises still-warm bodies
plucked and cleaned
we shall eat well for
many months

dogs view a moment
sceptically walk away
better he leave some whole
for us they opine but he won't
he’s never tasted sweet flesh
hot from the chase that
melts in your mouth

he sees only hatchlings
pure in their innocence
© 29 July 2009, I. D. Carswell

19 September 2009

We Don’t Want That Do We

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waited in the queue again
assigned a space after the last

addendum
and before ‘sleep’ process activates

I know I am demeaned by a
logical classification as mild
to medium risk – and probably fair

enough
the nature of my role is symptomatic
for programmes to need to clean data
backup and repack discs where my
random interrogation causes flux

but ignorance is such bliss
it should have occurred to me before
this – the system is bent on
an unsubtle education program
of behaviour modification
with brusque warnings issued
in messages I cannot ignore

today it says I have to wait while
it removes a Trojan –
to interfere is to compromise security
and we don’t want that
do we ... ?
© 29 July 2009, I. D. Carswell

18 September 2009

Let Taste Decide

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is vodka in the freezer
a way of saying you
don’t rate ice cubes?

or more pertinently
a simplification of that
golden rule of age

the one that says
keep your personal
problems on ice

although my quandary
is easily defined – I can’t
remember which applies

my rationale lets taste
decide the how and when
and where of it...
© 28 July 2009, I. D. Carswell

17 September 2009

Her Chosen Way

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he’s there, teeth bared
snarling as if it’s his food
while she’s crouched
protecting it

he’s fed on two
full chicken necks
she refused – always
her prerogative

only he sees a better
deal in VIP gourmet
chicken, wants an
elder brother’s share

her eyes do not appeal
for my support though
at my voice are calmed quite
visibly – we are in tune

a closeness that we share
he’ll come to understand
in knowing why she
stood her ground

she doesn’t want to eat
only wants to sleep the final
sleep this day and I will
let her go her chosen way
© 27 July 2009, I. D. Carswell

16 September 2009

Living Proof

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The sexual health of teens has turned
again – if you believe reports; there’s
been a blaze of sentiment demeaning
progress made in years when we their
peers were vilified for free and sleazy
acts bizarre – behaviours too redact to
face the moral light of day, or should I
sound contrite and let it ride? It reads
as if they knew awhile just how they
flew too close to courtesy; but I am
wiser now – Denizens of News oblige
controversy to sell a petty fare. I say
there’s nothing there and never was –
those figures more or less are same
as when our mothers’ mothers sadly
claimed they went too far. Truths a
weary casualty that died at birth and
chlamydia, gonorrhoea, or syphilis
exists today as living proof...
© 25 July 2009, I. D. Carswell

15 September 2009

Change Of Air

chills

a change of cooler air has
peeled veneers of harmony
too easily – a chill satirical
in wariness that coffee’s heat
could not dispense

sounds stir in mornings’ still
clouds thicken with no
threat and the crow’s calls
busily recede – a gap growing
between us

breezes stir on reflection
like hands run pathetically
through hair – trite gestures
of unease drawing
slanted attention

surely it is coolness of
thought not fangs bared
warmer wear will begin
to make amends – unless
this chill’s forever
© 25 July 2009, I. D. Carswell

14 September 2009

Charlotte Lily

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lost for words I am but how
you’ve changed the what and
where of that – it has to be a
now and new expression bearing
change; you’ll rearrange the life
I had without a second glance.
Your Mum & Dad will claim I’m
oddly patronymic in extreme and
selfless adoration – but it’s simply
me assured of precious love for
you. And there we are – you’re
here, arrived today and I’ll await
your righteous grace to make the
declaration dear and true
© 23 July 2009, I. D. Carswell

For Charlotte Lily who arrived 14:10
Thursday July 23 – congratulations
Angela and Aaron, parents of our
newest granddaughter

13 September 2009

Enormity Slams

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Enormity slams
no escaping reality
you’ve washed your
hands – dazed you
stagger away

trauma hangs veiled
with impressions of
bleeding badly but
bruises pale on
fantasy wounds

sealing certainty in
whimpered endings is
untenably naive
diminuendo in
an awful way

ending denies beginnings
where trumpets
played fortissimo
exultant sound recedes
to hollow echoes
© 22 July 2009, I. D. Carswell

12 September 2009

Have A Good Day

cooking-chicken

it is slaughter day
nowhere to hide
from the task
I tarry a while writing
to stay guiltless

they will know instantly
although the last episode
taught me caution
I cannot allay
unease

I’ll say to those cockerels
remaining of you ten will
depart plucked and
dressed in plastic
to rest at ease

forgive me
have a good day
© 22 July 2009, I. D. Carswell

11 September 2009

Wary Lines

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they’re wary lines thus traced
in contours of your face – I’d say
apologia for ageing not
the way we’ve done 

I see those youthful signs
in places where we crème to
stave a caving in and wonder
who you were

I know – you are eternally
a breath of air, the who of whom
we were before these corrugations 
came to stay

the word Adonis doesn’t mean
a thing to you I’ll bet
and yet it’s you for sure
and therefore also me
© 21 July 2009, I. D. Carswell

10 September 2009

Unopened Mail

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unopened mail tells the story better
the rambling dissertation of a vague
fifteen-second attention span fails
in this plainly broken man

hey, how’re things today – you’re
looking sharp for a loser with no
place to hide and an overdraft
so where’s the mail-order bride?

yeah, over the limit I know but any
attempt at humour when weather’s
this dry has to have tears in it to
bring a sense of relief

no need to make a fuss but a mug
of tea will be great if you’re making
say, why don’t you grab a seat while
I clean the bench and do the dishes

I know you’re trying – I see your lips
trembling shamefully to say thanks
are those really tears in your eyes –
surely I didn’t mention her name
© 21 July 2009, I. D. Carswell

09 September 2009

Remote In Hand

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had it up to here with
those neo-sophisticates
sneering from their TV shows

they should be made sit
this side of the screen and
suffer the same indignity

make them feel a whole lot
less superior to be targets
of pathetic bad taste

but I don’t care about ratings
audiences are 50% morons
the rest just surfing anyway

which comes back to me;
shouldn’t engage in criticism
remote in hand...
© 21 July 2009, I. D. Carswell

08 September 2009

Love Ran Out

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the simple account
– love ran out
no-longer sustained by
medieval bracelets charmed
with romantic favour

you could see it
as attributed by fate
grafted in years of hard labour
sold down the river by
impossible dreams

they were fairy tales
too deeply inured in
endless mythologies
unsecured debentures
naive fantasies failed

and it’s slaughter day
with a willing cancer
in the shape of me
behind a mask for
a heart broken

love ran out for you
and you were freed
while I am nailed
to unrequited affection
for eternity
© 20 July 2009, I. D. Carswell

07 September 2009

Discovering Me

Discover

I discern a person I never
knew – perhaps not the
one you did either but a
blurred phantom emerging
from today’s delirium

something is really there

who’d have thought ideas
as estranged as bans on
slow-moving pedestrians
from riding autobahns
could have this meaning

in laughably familiar themes

I can’t play charades as you
do your instincts too adroit
from centuries of social
breeding – with me an
indiscretion of your Royalty

a court jester entertaining avidly

but in a fleeting insight as
meaningless as accidental
capture of a falling
star I burn to death
to understand

where respect is awarded by you

I see what you mean
you’ve made changes
because you can – less
than I deserve although
more than I command

and there, discover me
© 19 July 2009, I. D. Carswell

Sentence

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violence disguised in
play of canines running
free and unrestrained
spits in the face of
safe community

to claim innocence in
carcases bloodied and rent
by wolf-like efficiency is
not constrained by
denying the evidence

they weren’t children
today – just calves who ran
the farmer amazed at
an owner’s reticence
regarding blame

they’ll pay a price
that’s mine he says
while your conscience
admits severity
of the sentence
© 18 July 2009, I. D. Carswell

06 September 2009

Last Word

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truth be told the last
word’s defined when
shock precludes reply

I can’t begin to try and
find a phrase to breach
reality – the rules are
made that way

silence is a sly and evil
friend when it redacts
the words one needs
to breathe again
© 18 July 2009, I. D. Carswell

05 September 2009

Words Just Flew Away

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The voice says
“get on the phone
and ring, damn it!”

and I listen
agreeing
yes, it’s the
proper thing

enthused I think of
what I’ll say until
remembering
last time and the
tone in your voice

distance
caution
defensiveness
reservation used
more for strangers
than I was prepared

– and words
just flew away
© 17 July 2009, I. D. Carswell

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04 September 2009

A Smile At No Expense

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dwelling in uncertainty
that vacillates between
despair and hopelessness
swamped in depths of
darkened introspection
edged with silver chalices
dispensing only misery
– oh, is this figure me


cannot reach beyond good
yesterday where joy at no
expense conspires with glee
to free at least a winsome
smile – but wasted in this
hapless halophile
© 17 July 2009, I. D. Carswell

03 September 2009

Six Referees

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Six referees and still a farce that
never ends; last night’s 3rd (& last)
NRL State of Origin dove to a new
nadir. Mired in controversy before
it began (a player deemed unfit by
NSW cleared to play come Saturday
for Club) it makes one wonder
whether rules are always bent.

And talking heads – I will be rude
and say Phil Gould is leader of the
list in biased commentary (& not a
pretty face – but hey it’s Channel 9),
disgracing efforts made by brighter
lights with ease as consummate as
passing wind. Methinks it’s thusly
done to be insane theatricality.

But Six Referees still galls as rank
lunacy unleashed – two on field,
two to run the lines and two to sit
cocooned and watch TV. A sinecure
avoiding single blame! In the event
a tense display and for the record
anyway, Queensland won some
fights on-field, NSW the game.
© 16 July 2009, I. D. Carswell

02 September 2009

Taller Trees

taller trees

these trees stand taller
than ambition’s
figments thwarted
by cruel twists of fate
reflections mellowed
in late autumn

they are huge things
towering without
malice it seems
but brittle ends to
dead limbs say
take heed – 

once I meant to cut
them down – astride
a line between propriety
and pragmatism
you understand
but failed

I learned
trees have more
friends than enemies –
and to live in their shade
is a privilege
rarely earned
© 15 July 2009, I. D. Carswell

01 September 2009

Doing Its Thing

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problem reports and solutions
feature in this computer’s benign and
magnanimous management system

it tells me 660 problems
were experienced between 6/8/2007
and this morning

I am surprised – but it still works
doesn’t it? Nonetheless it goes
off busily to do its thing

not as if a physical presence
leaves the machine – that would
be too eerie even for me

but something weird is going on
making me feel uneasy
660 problems I didn’t know

it hadn’t even reached halfway
reporting 246 of 660
when I last dared look

but I might as well get on with
my day – it doesn’t need or
even care about me worrying
© 15 July 2009, I. D. Carswell